motherhood

some days, well most days I do not think I am up for the job. When people tell me what an incredible job I do, I wonder how I am faking it so well. I think they say that because they look at 3 kids so close in age and wonder how am I even alive. Someone said to me yesterday when I said no, I never feel like it goes well - she said, every mother of three would say that, it comes with the job. maybe so. I think I am good at doing for them, but not being with them. reading books, throwing balls, there is so much else to do, it is hard to stop and be with them. I just feel the pressure of everything else I have to do for them.